It's confusing to think who your real friends are... if they were the friends who were close to you before and now Destroys you. "Shitheads!" I guess i really can't trust FRIENDS right? i dont know who my real true friends are. some are using me. deceiving me, playing me. i guess that's what they do. "Assholes" Phew! after doing this journal i gotta..and i mean i really need to Go and pray to God. LolZ.

they are no better than dogs.. wait.. rephrase.. rephrase..

I am ofcourse only talking about one "friend" and her name is M_____.. Secret!

"SHE!" is no better than a dog! she is a Bitch.
she is an immature sluT!
she has no idea who she is dealing with.
I hate her..

Her head is as big as the core of the earth, yet nothing inside..

She is a whore.. a cruel self-proclamed princess of Fucker town in Dildow island.

good luck being the almighty airhead of your little world!

Too much assignments are given to me. I hate those strict teachers.. "pass it on time.Or else"

"or else ano man ma'am?" hihi
(sigh)(strange look)(walk out)

grrrrrr....

MOod: angry.frustrated.worried..

UGGHH!

Until now, my father is still upset in what i have done in my previous school. I think he knows i didn't mean to do it. I hate myself. He does not trust me anymore. I love him so much and i never wanted to upset him. I want to achieve something great and prove to him that i still am his Daughter. Not his enemy. I want him to see that i am doing everything just for him. just for his happiness. I want to tell him that i was always the one wrong.. and he was always right. But...I just can't. My pride is ruling over my life, me, everything i have. I hate myself. I envy people who enjoy quality time with their father and their family. I wish i could turn back time and fix everything. from the beginning. from the top. I don't want anyone disappointed or angry. I just want people to be proud of me for who i am and what i am doing. I'm just a mistake. I hate myself for making everyone feel bad.

:fucking mood: :wont change!: ugggHH!! I am not sentimental. I'm angry!! :angry:

Funny thing about my life here in Cebu is that.. the first day of classes I had nobody to talk with. no one to ask questions to. No one to annoy for the whole day. Hahahaha

But now the weird thing is that all of a sudden i have a lot of friends and remember, it was still the first day. So it was like this.. People talk to me for no reason. They actually introduce themselves to me. How cool is that? hahaha

LoL...

Our group is called the "united nations" believe it. All of u are from different parts of the Philippines. Not to mention the world? haha

Germany- Vanya
Japan- Osamu and Cazuya
Cebu-Ced, John, Ryan and Johnathan
Manila- Jr and Erika
Gensan- Ynyn
Korea- Sin Juh
California- Steven

I mean I can say its kind of hard or difficult to commmunicate to them because of the different languages you speak but.. who cares. We enjoy and that is what matters. <3

It was like the first day of class. I went to my new school looking for my new classmates and also my new room. I succeeded in finding my new blockmates..But where the hell is the room? Hmmmm... Room 2B09.. where are you? I have wasted my whole 3 hours looking for that stupid room. Since i arrived in school(10:17am sharp)i was already looking for my room.I passed by room 2B06, 2B07,2B08. But where the fuck is 2B09. I was sweating like crazy. Gosh! tired!! frustrated!!irritated!! what was i supposed to do?i went to my next class and found my new classmates sitting near the teacher's desk.

"Where the heck is our 2B09 classroom Ced?" I exclaimed.CED is my new found friend in usc. such a coincidence that her name is my surname.Lol but going back to the missing room thing...

"It was transfered to room AF209. Didn't the admissions text you?" she asked.

"shit! i have been looking for that room and it didn't even exist?"

Well, that's my day so far. sO much shit happened. I hate transferring to a different school!! But what could i do?? I had no choice.

at least i met new friends.(CED, VANYA, JR, STEVEN, ERIKA, OSHIMO(the Japanese guy). lol.